As Jack reads Alice in Wonderland to his Nephew on the evening of August 31, 2007, he seems so happy and at peace, however the words he is reading really summarizes what everyone on LOST Island (and most of us) has been going through since the show began. The words he reads are:
“I wonder if I’ve been changed in the night? Let me think. Was I the same when I got up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I’m not the same, the next question is ‘Who in the world am I?’ Ah, that’s the great puzzle!”
Life experiences have a way of changing people, however not everyone has the self-awareness to truly learn from those experiences and help themselves from having the same emotional reactions to events that keep repeating in different ways throughout their lives.
Jack is a prime example of this type of person. There is probably no greater life-altering experience someone can have than to survive a plane crash, be stranded on an island, and eventually return back to the world you once knew. That return is the equivalent of crossing the Rubicon or the point of no return, where you make a conscious choice to “save” yourself.
The second chance that comes with an experience such as that is an opportunity that most people never receive. Jack seems like he’s got it all together and then suddenly the old reactions to similar experiences start to rear their ugly head. The biggest examples of these for Jack include turning to alcohol (and pain killers) like his father before him as well as the jealousy that comes from not trusting in the love of someone he cares very deeply for because he “can’t let go” of the past.
True self-awareness is not only knowing who you are, but also knowing who you are becoming and why you feel and act as you do. That awareness provides the opportunity to change and create the life you want.
I really feel for Jack and I’m rooting for him to find himself. The pre-season 4 promos said, “Find Yourself”. Perhaps Jack will finally do so in season 5.
Here’s a re-cap of other events from this outstanding episode:
• I was thinking exactly what Rose ended up saying to Bernard about Jack’s illness, “Why did he get sick? Here, they get better.” I’m sure we’ll find out some logical reason why and it will hopefully explain how Ben got his tumor as well.
• I found it interesting that Jack told everyone to be patient when he reminded them that he promised he’d get them all off the island.
• In the opening off-island scenes, I loved the millennium falcon toy, the newspaper headline, which helped us establish a date, and the appendix scar that you can see in Jack’s mirror reflection. Details!
• The new timeline established by the actual game between the Yankees and Red Sox tells us that Jack’s breakdown that we watched in the season 3 finale must occur in the fall of 2007, three years after the crash of Flight 815. It was originally speculated that that flash-forward was in April of 2007, but there’s been much online debate about the accuracy.
• Sawyer really does seem to be taking on much more of a big brother role with his island friends lately and with no obvious benefit to himself.
• I like the character of Miles. I don’t like him, but I like the character. I just hope that finding the dead bodies of Karl and Danielle Rousseau doesn’t mean that we’ll never get a Danielle flashback or at least see what happened to her fellow castaways who “got sick”.
• I liked Jack’s line to Hurley, “Just because I’m happy doesn’t mean that this isn’t real.” Hurley’s reply, “I was happy too Jack, for a while anyway.”
• When Hurley delivers Charlie’s message to Jack, “You’re not supposed to raise him, Jack”, we’re finally reminded of the season one episode titled ‘Raised By Another’. In that episode, we learn that Claire went to a psychic (Malkin) who warned her that danger surrounds her baby if he is parented by anyone else and that, “There is no happy life for this child, not without you.” Eventually Malkin sets Claire up on Flight 815 by telling her a family in Los Angeles is willing to adopt the child, but there really was no family in Los Angeles and Malkin knew the plane would crash and she would be forced to raise her own child.
• On top of that eerie message from Charlie, Jack and Claire are both visited separately by their father who sets off into the jungle with Claire and Aaron only to leave Aaron for Sawyer to find. Now, my first conclusion was that this was how they were going to explain the separation of Claire from Aaron instead of killing her off, but the preview for next week clearly shows Claire sitting back on the beach with Rose, Sun, and Aaron.
• There was a subtle comment made between Charlotte and Daniel that I found interesting when they are in the medical station (The Staff). Dan says, “Where do you suppose all this power comes from?”
• I was glad to see that Lipidus seems to be a good guy and I still think that even though Miles, Daniel and Charlotte are somewhat shady characters, they aren’t anywhere near as dangerous as the other folks on the freighter.
• Charlotte speaks Korean. I didn’t see that one coming, but how about Jin making sure that Sun and their baby get off the island even if it means he doesn’t. He may still be alive in the future!?
• The title of the episode was delivered by Bernard to Jack during the surgery when he says, “wouldn’t you rather be dreaming about ‘something nice back home’?”
• It seems pretty obvious to me that Kate must be doing something for Cassidy and/or Clementine (Sawyer’s daughter) and promised Sawyer that she wouldn’t tell anyone else about what she was doing, including Jack. I can understand Jack’s suspicion, but Kate’s plea for him to trust her should have been enough considering everything they have been through.
• How about Juliet’s conversation with Kate post-op? She says Jack kissed her because he was trying to convince himself that he doesn’t love someone else (Kate). To me, it was even more significant that Juliet knew Jack was awake to hear it.
Okay, this next episode is called ‘Cabin Fever’. The preview shows a blue schematic map that includes the word CABIN on it and the preview also shows us Horace Goodspeed who says that he may not be making any sense because he’s been dead for 12 years. To remind you, Horace is the one who helped deliver Ben and eventually brought Ben and his father Roger to the island to join the DHARMA initiative. He was killed during the purge, which we now have a timeline for. Subtract 12 years from the crash year and it happened in 1992. That’s assuming that a dead person speaking to Locke in a preview understands time in the afterlife.
The preview also seems to show Sayid sitting next to Juliet on the beach, which means he’s off the freighter.
Hold on over the next few weeks because we’re going to find out a LOT, but we’re also going to be furious about the eight month hiatus we’ll have to endure.